Life

I have writen out my story
put my life in to words to share.
I soon will lay my self on the line infront of my friends
and i pray they will understand
who i am and how i became me
life has always changed so i cant put in everything
i had lots of good times as a kid
sadly none of them affected me as strongly as the others
is it the sad and hard things in my past
it is those that have made me who i am
i respect those that  have had it easy
those who cant related to all that i have to share
but i am happy with what i have to share
i have had a lot thrown at me
and i have grown through it
become stronger
strong enough to fight for myself
and strong enough to want to fight with my friends
along side them
to find a life worth admiring
worth living
and do everything i am meant to do
through will power
strength and guidence
i will find a way

Story

I got asked to tell my story at youth.
I think it is a great opportunity but the idea scares me.
I have always been good at talking.
But never about my self.
What will people think?
Will they judge me differently from my past?
I don't want to be afraid of my past anymore but at times i just can't help it.
Everyone is shaped from there past.
Will people still see me or who they think I should have become.
The people at youth are the most nonjudgmental people I know.
But that fear is still there.
I trust them and i want them to know the true me.
I have had my trust broken but I can't use that excuse to block people out.
I have to trust again.
God give me the words to show who i truly am.

Sam

Every time i here this song i think of you.
The first person i gave my heart to without question.
The only person to try and stand by me no matter what.
I know I have to move on and I have in so many ways.
I still miss you every day.
It was the small things you did that mattered.
The way you hugged me when i was upset.
The way you held my hand not caring what other people would think.
It was these thing i charished the most.
And it is these things that i will always miss.
You are not in my life anymore but you will always be in my heart.
You changed my life so much and i would give it all back so you could  live another day.
You had an amazing soul and an amazing heart.
So this is for you:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ELkWIGOxPyk

Silence

Silence is the purest sound.
Through silence we learn to listen to the smallest sounds that can be the most important.
By wiping out the sounds we can control, the world around us becomes more real.
Only in silence can we find hope.
Find anything that we are looking for.
But what is it that we are looking for?
Faith? Love?
Who knows the answer to this question?
Human? God? Or something else?
It is only in silence that we can search for that answer.
And only in silence that it will be given.

Stolen Love

This is to Sam
Where ever you are out there my heart is still with you.
<3<3<3<3<3<3

What have you done?
A fog of betrayal as emotions sleep.
Once we savoured wander,
Untainted and hand in hand.
But our thirst vanished.
A sickened vision of memory.
Tears follow hate follow pain.
Love Condemned.
In a burts of bitterness,
I Still Love You!

Love

I dont know how to tell you how i feel.
You are a dear friend and I dont want to endanger that.
But when you hug me i feel safe.
Safe from anything life throws at me.
Safe even from my past.
and i love that feeling,
even though i hate to admit it.

RIP

my grandma past away a couple weeks ago and i got a ring today
a ring that she had left behind for me
it is a solid thing to remind me of the amazing life she lives
my memories with he i will always remember
and the ring i will always hold close to my heart
her will was strong and she incoraged me in whatever i set my heart to
she was an amazing woman
who affected the lives of many
and will be missed by all.
may she rest in piece
<3

Globalization

Each night brings hope for a new day.
A day where life will be good.
Were people will be united world wide with the desire to do good to each other.
No more war,
Or hate,
Or murder.
Each night brings this hope
And each day does not deliver.
Globalization apparently is happening.
Yet there is still racism and stereotyping because people just don't understand.
People feel the need to go to war and fight for their country against a threat they aren't even Sure is there.
A threat that could very well have just been started as a rumor.
When will we start sticking up for what we believe in in a way that doesn't involve death.
When will the strong start standing by those who cant stand for themselves.
People are broken and shattered.
And yet we live,
We grow,
And that night still brings hope of a better day.
A new tomorrow

love and loss

Loss now seems inevitable.
It is a common thing now for people to feel a loss of everyone or everything.
Love has become a word thrown around as if without meaning.
Yet it is a word that holds more meaning then any other,
And it alone can bring someone to their knees.
Why has life become such a complicated thing?
Why has love lost all meaning?
Love never lasts.
With every loss of love its meaning fades.
People now have lost how to make sense of the lives they live.
The only way to escape this fate if to find a love that is never lost.
A love that will lead us from the Pain.
Lead us through out Own lives.
Away to a place of understanding.
A way to live a life all ours and in doing so honor Him.
Our one savior.
The one love that will out shine the ages.
Through him we will find Understanding,
Find Light,
And Love,
And Hope.