change in myself

I found some poems and old writing samples of mine from years ago
they are strange even to me
and they make me think, make me wonder
what was i thinking about then?
what was going on in my life?
none of them have dates on them
or any indicator of when they are from in my life
just a different time
a sadder time
when my mind was in a different place
and so was my heart
even though they are written from the same heart
they do not relate any more
they clash violently
as if written by two very different people
and i know i have changed over the years
but it is weird to see it in something so concrete
so different

Job

Not working is getting to me.
I can't stand being home so much.
I have enjoyed getting a chance to work on my writing
but i need a job. need something to do during the day.
if you hear of anywhere that is hireing
please let me know

Amazing food

I went to my brother's restaurant yesterday
It was amazing (and I don't just say that because he is my brother)
If you ever have a chance you should check it out
It is called Lava Dining and Lounge
It is in Maple ridge on Dewdney trunk road at 225th

Job

I finally have a job interview tomorrow after all this time
It is at value village and i applied for full time
I hope I get it

I have never posted things on here that aren't written from my own heart so this is a first
this song is amazing and the words are strong so i felt like sharing it.
It is by Bon Jovi and it is called Thank You For Loving Me


It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light

Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes when I couldn't see for
Parting my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue

Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes when I couldn't see
For parting my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me, yeah

Lock the doors
Leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes oh, when I couldn't see
You parted my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
Oh for loving me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eesZBfTj0cU

Story of Good and Evil

I have been writing a story for years now
It started out as a simple thing
I didnt like writing but it was a way to express myself and pass the time
It has now turned into a amazing story and a huge hobby
Now nearing the hundred page mark it is almost complete
The editing is close behind
The idea of it being done scares me
I have put so many years of my life into it
Now that the time nears for me to try and get it published, I falter, I shake
I think to myself, what if no one likes it, what if it isn't as good as i hope for it to be
Then i think they are all what Ifs and I will never know unless i try
And although I still falter, still shake I have found my goal
What I want to do and want to accomplish in my life
Even if it isnt a lot to someone else it is to me
And thats what makes me who I am
That's what make me me

...

i haven't written in a while so i have a lot that goes unsaid.
i shared my story and i think it went well
but it changed my relationship with a couple people
some for the good and some im not so sure
my life has changed so much over ther years
and i am happy were i stand
i just wish i knew were the others stood around me